Underneath the sky so bright in the darkest hour of the day turned into the night
While you're looking up at the moon for answers I'm just searching for questions
I see my reflection being mirrored right back at me through the lake of the minds deception
Going out of my mind thinking about life always pretending that I'm doing just fine
I am not okay I am not alright I've been feeling so paranoid paranoid
In the dead of the night demons in my mind through the depths of my soul I don't feel just fine
Mentally physically emotional integrity this isn't how it has to be
Going out of my mind tangled in emotions I see the paranoid signs and I know I know
I'm not well but I'm not insane I'm just stuck with a paralyzed brain
Heart is beating faster with every breath I'm not unwell just a little depressed
Feels just like sometimes I'm going out of my mind
Seems like its that time now again chaos and fear creep inside my head
Give me my gun I'm already dead so what does it matter
My sanity is gone it went a different way its my fault because I dont recall asking it to stay
Now the walls are closing in terrified don't know what to do please someone save me
Going out of my mind thinking about life always pretending that I'm doing just fine
I am not okay I am not alright I've been feeling so paranoid paranoid
In the dead of the night demons in my mind through the depths of my soul I don't feel just fine
Mentally physically emotional integrity this isn't how it has to be
Going out of my mind tangled in emotions I see the paranoid signs and I know I know
I'm not well but I'm not insane I'm just stuck with a paralyzed brain
Heart is beating faster with every breath I'm not unwell just a little depressed
Feels just like sometimes I'm going out of my mind
I'm smashing walls breaking free from that prison cell I made in my own mind
I've made my own reality reality reality
So I say to myself that I'm in control I need to remember the demons cannot have my soul
I notice my faults haunting my soul but at least I don't need someone anymore
For me to feel whole whole whole