P&Q - Hear My Relapse Lyrics

I swear on my life
That I am alright
Stay up through the night
An owl with a pen amirite
Eyes closed when I write
Floating above my bed turn off all the lights
Starting to dream
I'm running in place
Can't even scream

Wake up
Can not catch my breath
Thinking this the day that's gonna be my death
Couple minutes go by
Nothing wrong with my sight
Guess I lived through the night
Hmm sounds weird right?

Every day has been like this
Hit me all at once it just isn't making sense
Feel like imma die man
Feel I needa cry man
Gotta hit the music cuz I needa unwind man

Put it in my spoon then I heat it up
Watching all the notes bubble hearing all the voices speaking up

What they saying now?
I don't really know
Haven't got the music flowing since I got provoked

Stick the needle in then my eyes roll back
I needa relax
When I write for the track
I know it's gonna slap
You can hear me relapse
Got my fingers moving
You know PQ's coming back

Always got the fast flow but I needa slow it down
Stress has gotten too much I can't have anther breakdown
Yeah I had a breakdown
Doctor told me just to watch the breathing and to settle down
All of this will come around

Okay
I am okay
Its a new day
Needa pray

Praying that the voices in my head
Finally settle down
But Im thinking 2020 be the year it all comes around

You know i been staying on the AK47 spitting for a minute guess I haven't changed
Just adjust my aim
Point it at the brain
Trigger finger pain
Can't contain
Still a no name
Don't worry about the fame

Check the last three years you can tell i don't stay in the same lane
My thoughts just can't be contained
Open Pandora's box yet I'm still the one that you blame

I swear on my life
That I am alright
Stay up through the night
An owl with a pen amirite
Eyes closed when I write
Floating above my bed turn off all the lights
Starting to dream
I'm running in place
Can't even scream

Outcast of the rap game
Slippery serpent constricting my veins
Put em on blast like a shockwave
You can't ignore all of the fallout I gave

Maybe it wasn't a lot to the few of you but to me it was a total achievement it broke up my heart when I started from square one
But sometimes you gotta tear down what you were and become who you are

Then you can really go far
That's how you leave up your mark
Growing and moving you gotta evolve
But never change who you are

Doesn't matter if you don't like it I love it
You think your opinion is worse than my own?
After I publish the track I'll probably regret it
Aye I reap what I sow

Took me 6 months just write a new track
Like to take my time when I spit up new rhymes I can't rush and make it bad I don't waste any time
In my music and my life
I'm an artist and a dad

Switching it up like I'm a trans
Putting you all in a trance
Spit it ridiculous anyone feeling this
I am just trying to gather some fans

Came a long way and I'm still moving forward and matter of fact there is no need to corner me all of y'all acting like we drawing quarters
William Wallace drawn and quartered

Writing songs without a chorus
Not the only one there is more of us
When I'm gone y'all carry the torches
No looking back only forwards