Why can't you understand me
Why can't I understand you
What can I do to get through to you
Look at my new born child
Healthy as can be
Just kidding
He's got a diagnosis nobody can see
It's called Autism
The spectrum that wrecked him
A prison within
I feel like I lost him
His mind is a puzzle
But I'm the one in pieces
Doctors say there's no cure
So I pray to Jesus
I'd never chose this kind of news
If birth is a gamble
Did I just lose
It's always a surprise when a dream dies
And you realize it's time to reprioritize
And your happily ever looks miserable forever
And there's no hope your kid will ever get better
I feel guilty for feeling sad
Your is kid is special
Aren't you glad
A kid like Kodi Lee can't be that bad
He looks normal
Used to speak 100 words, but lost them
Didn't vaccinate and he still got Autism
Why can't you understand me
Why can't I understand you
What can I do to get through to you
Why can't you understand me
Why can't I understand you
Oh can you see what I'm going through
Sometimes I wonder
What did I do wrong
You acting normal didn't last that long
Now you destroy your room
And smear poop on the wall
I remember when you first learned how to crawl
You used to smile and respond to my voice
Now you don't know where to look because of all the noise
Sometimes I can't stand seeing him
He reminds me of the prayers God isn't answering
I'm trying to be a good father
Why bother
If I left, you'd find another
What should I do when you scream for hours
I wanted to be super dad but I lost my powers
Sometimes I say life would be better without you
A coping mechanism for my broken heart coming through
Before you judge and invalidate my feelings
Would you love me
And help this bleeding heart find healing
Why can't you understand me
Why can't I understand you
What can I do to get through to you
Why can't you understand me
Why can't I understand you
Oh can you see what I'm going through
What's going to happen after I die
Tell me how to switch places
I promise I'll try
Nothing's for sure
Still hoping for a cure
Even when people judge me
For thinking you're not pure
Gluten Free
Dairy Free
Is anything but free
Supplements and protocols are costly
They say divorce comes eventually
When ASD puts stress between your mom and me
ABA therapy and evaluations are expensive
$60,000 dollars a year just to live
This is insane
How can I get in that brain
I'm sorry if my panic is causing you pain
Maybe you're the strong and silent type
But you're not that strong
You're a kid
This is wrong
If you're happy and you know it
Say something
Even I hate you
Is better than nothing
I know you're not the only one
This is an epidemic taking all our sons
This feels like silence before the slaughter
Lord, please don't let this happen to my daughter