When I cut you out I loved you just the same
But I couldn't bear to watch you die more everyday
Your father handed me a rose on top your grave
I could hardly breathe or find the right words to say
What if I stuck around to see you through your shit
What if I hadn't turned my back to it
I know that I couldn't save you
But I wished I tried
A little harder than I did towards the end
Your family let me in to say my last goodbyes
You had autumn eyes
They told me that I did my best to help you through
That you loved me
Even with my back to you
The thought of you gone playing round and round
What if I stuck around to see you through your shit
What if I hadn't turned my back to it
I know that I couldn't save you
But I wished I tried
A little harder than I did towards the end
The thought of you gone playing round and round