PROD.by.MDWhite - Can't Say It Out Loud Lyrics

Tonight, the thoughts in my head are screaming again,
But I wear my silence like a shield from friends.
Built walls so high, you'd think I'm fine,
Hiding the chaos behind my lines.
It's the mask I wear, a voice that's calm,
While inside I'm caught in a silent storm.
Every smile's a lie I learned to tell,
An act so well-rehearsed, even I can't tell.

I'm not okay, but you'll never see,
Holdin' back words that could set me free.
With so much to say, but fear in my veins,
Every time I try, it's like a weight remains.
If I let it out, would you walk away?
Or would you stay if I can't say I'm okay?
Can't say it out loud, the truth's too deep,
A voice drowned out where shadows creep.


I'm a prisoner of words I keep inside,
Afraid of the truth I can't confide.
Told myself it's strength to bear the weight,
But every hidden hurt just fuels the ache.
In this fortress of quiet, I stand alone,
Guarding a heart that's turned to stone.
They see my surface, calm and clear,
But they don't know the battles fought right here.


I'm not okay, but you'll never see,
Holdin' back words that could set me free.
With so much to say, but fear in my veins,
Every time I try, it's like a weight remains.
If I let it out, would you walk away?
Or would you stay if I can't say I'm okay?
Can't say it out loud, the truth's too deep,
A voice drowned out where shadows creep.


What if it breaks me, to hold it alone?
What if these secrets are all I've known?
I'm scared of the echoes, scared of the sound,
If I say the words, will I still be found?
Could you handle the scars and the flaws I hide?
Or am I safer in the dark where they reside?


I'm not okay, but you'll never see,
Holdin' back words that could set me free.
With so much to say, but fear in my veins,
Every time I try, it's like a weight remains.
If I let it out, would you walk away?
Or would you stay if I can't say I'm okay?
Can't say it out loud, the truth's too deep,
A voice drowned out where shadows creep.


Tonight, the silence roars so loud,
A burden I carry, hidden in crowds.
Wish I could speak, wish I could scream,
But instead, I'll keep it locked in my dream.
Maybe someday I'll find a way,
To say I'm not okay and have someone stay.
But until then, I'll guard this ache,
A story untold, a heart at stake.