Ten Toes Down Video (MV)

I got this weight on my shoulder , I feel my heart getting colder
And still be lying because I can never stand to be sober
As Every time I plan to smoke getting high but then I get lower
Broken down i know but to God above I'm the greatest soldier
There has been a pain so long inside of me I can't get over
See I'm sorry if I push you away if we getting closer
Always stay giving my heart to the weak so call me a donor
I be laughing all my anger but see don't call me a joker

Everybody really puts on an act who the one joking
One minute I think I'm happy but then feeling sad and broken
That is why I hate becoming vulnerable just to be open
Because then I become lost and blinded where I should be going
Life is suffocating me i can barely breathe and I'm chocking
Ive been feeling so depressed have you noticed that i been coping
On the surface I'm a puddle but I'm deeper than the ocean
Cause I just be having many feelings I am never showing

Feeling like I'm running from my demons when I'm in the tunnel
I'm just tryna catch a light can anybody feel my struggle
All I ever hear is negativity giving me trouble
And I keep Telling myself that I have get through my struggle
All the walls are caving in my thoughts are coming down like rubble
But I owe it to my mama and not back down if I stumble
Many times I had to sit alone I'm used to my own bubble
Yeah predators in my life I had to make it out this jungle

Listen What I wanted was for them to hear the words I'm saying
And I really could careless in what they say I'm not here playing
I keep looking up to God mama says to keep on praying
Cause there passion in my words in every single track I'm laying
And I'm chasing after every goal in life i keep on making
Taking One step at a time get to moving to keep on gaining
Only give the time of day for real ones not the fake or draining
Gotta bunch of struggle pain and blows That I just keep on takin

But my mind has been a prison interrupting this my vision
I've been going through a lot I'm gonna have to keep my mission
Tired of the people lying to my face they play the villains
Always asking something from you but they never wanna listen
Every time you need someone their never there but always hidden
Music always will be my escape just feels Ike I'm addicted
I was always different and I knew I never really fit in
If Im ever down my soul will live in everything I've written