Proper. - Milk and Honey Lyrics

I don't think I could ever love you
I don't think I could give you what you need
But in the land of milk and honey you're the goal, you're the dream
But why settle for just milk and honey when there's caviar, avocadoes, and clotted cream

I don't think it'd work for me
I can't be your everything
Can't see myself passing on my name
Call me selfish, call me insane
Call me a coward, I won't complain
Can't keep the what ifs out of my brain

Like what if one day you woke up mean
2 decades of tenderness just to end up caring for nothing
What if you fall to snake oil salesmen, split thinking
Why see the world in black and white
When there are beautiful hues
Like cobalt blue, champagne, royal purple, and olive green

What if I end up hating you?
What if you grow to hate me too?
Then please tell me what the f*ck do I do?
Call me selfish, call me insane
Call me a coward, I won't complain
Can't keep the what ifs out of my brain

Like what if you died before me?
Am I supposed to just bury you and pretend to keep on living?
That's the big what if I just couldn't handle
Today I'm marking your height on the wall
But tomorrow you're just a picture on the mantle

What if
I can't do this