[pseudonym] - FIREWALKING Lyrics

I'm not lit
Someone give me a light
Cause the smoke signal I should emit has run dry
Spewing out words
Not accompanied with thought
Tomorrow's yesterday I will change
But today I am not
I am the sun
The center of all that is
But I have no problem turning me off
With you headed into the abyss
Ironic
Because without me things just get hotter
But to change is too much work
So I won't even bother
Reflections in the mirror don't look how they used to
I see a different me and not an image of you
Polluted, raped, and beaten into someone new
And I do not like myself
Disgust from what I do
I have been touched
By the devilish one
He put a mark into my skin
So I forget where I'm from
And I live somewhere between two worlds
Not where I should be
But the note I wrote the world said
FIRE WALK WITH ME
Take it slow so we all burn up
I won't hold you back from safety
But I won't help you across
I can't find resolve
And I can't pick a side
So I guess I'm just descending
On my private little ride
Reflections in the mirror don't look how they used to
I see a different me and not an image of you
Polluted, raped, and beaten into someone new
And I do not like myself
Disgust from what I do
Prioritize my life
Cause I can't do it right
I lodge myself in darkness when the day turns into night
I cannot find a way out of repeating rooms
The monsters aren't so scary when you've become one too