psycholm - Chasing Shadows Lyrics

I can't help myself
Around you
Losing my sense of self
Don't know if it's true
I just need you to love me
It's all that I'd ever want, please
The fruit on top of the free
That I'll never be able to achieve

It's you that I hold
In too high regard
And sometimes you're too cold
And we seem so far
We'll go through the dark
And I'll swear there's a spark
But no, f*ck me
I'm always quick to embark
Our contrast is so stark
I'll go and create some marks

The days never really change
Until I get to see you, it's strange
How quickly you turn my page
But otherwise there's a sense of rage
I hate having to disengage
When I sense that you're not engaged
This passion is tough to assuage
Stuck inside of this birdcage

It's to you that I'm cold
And I stay on guard
To ensure that you'll only scuff my heart
But once I get that spark
I can't help but remark
In my mind how strongly you mark
To you, I'll always hark
Our contrast is so stark
This time, it's even more sharp

You don't even know
How much I've loved you
Oh, I want to hold you in snow
So much we could do
I can't confess, though
You're one I'm afraid to lose
I'll just stay low
And bear my self-abuse

Forever convicted
To this damning love
I feel so constricted
When push comes to shove
God damnit, why can't you just love me?
I take one look at myself, and now I can see
That there's something I carry
I gave it to you, I'm sorry

That there's something I carry
I gave it to you, I'm sorry
That there's something I carry
I gave it to you, I'm sorry