Pain been surrounding me ages
I'm on the new chapter I feel like I been skipping pages
I been having misfortunes so I been misbehaving
Nowadays IDK where I am or where the stage is
Nowadays it's something I can't call out
Shit is deeper than kicking a f*ckin ball now
All my
Exes I ever had we in a fall out
And all the bitches I got now seem
To be a stall out
I just want to f*ckin call out
For help but these drugs seem to speak for themselves
I always wonder wtf is my purpose
I know I got a voice I just don't know if it's working
I know I got say but I'm really to imperfect
And my insecurities keeping finding a way to make me nervous
I can't even tell if I'm actually a person
Did improve or am I the old version
Yeah
Suicidal thoughts on membrane
Shit really gonna make me insane
All this pressure on my shoulder since 15
Is it really all about to f*ckin give way
I don't speak too much I don't wanna open up
I communicate with my first touch
If it's off then I don't GAF
Yeah
Water pipe broke no cold showers in 'cember
Still I went to school with a smile like September
We was so broke man my family couldn't sleep
How we went 4 winters with no f*ckin heat
Had cold dinners ripped socks on my feet
I gotta listen to my momma cause she always told me
Never let em break you
Never let em you make you
Black in this world they always gonna hate you
PHate you hate you
Women wanna date you
Yeah In disguise saying they just wanna save you no no
All these girls they string you on
The reason that you sing these songs
I write them on turn your rights to wrong
Pain been surrounding me ages
I'm on the new chapter I feel like I been skipping pages
I been having misfortunes so I been misbehaving
Nowadays Idk where I am or where the stage is
Nowadays it's something I can't call out
Shit is deeper than kicking a f*ckin ball now
All my
Exes I ever had we in a fall out
And all the bitches I got now seem
To be a stall out