Pumpkin Head - Seasonal Confesstions Lyrics

There's a hole in my heart from your lies
A hole in my mind from the memories
As parting brings bitter goodbyes
I'm honestly glad that you've left me now

When January's cold brought a new friend
Laughing and dancing through the wind
I felt the warmth that you radiated
Not ever wanting it to end

But season's greetings aren't always pleasing
And something lingers in the air
Lying makes everything so easy
The truth is just too hard to bear

And I can't tell if I'm the true monster
As you want to claim me to be
I can't tell if my morals are twisted
Or if that's what you want me to think

When the truth floods and pours out like rain
I'll finally know how you're feeling
And nothing could make this okay
Except repenting and resolving

There's a hole in my life where you lay
And ten thousand more where you left me
And nothing could keep us the same
'Cause no matter what I'm hurting like hell

When July came the heat was exhausting
And put on everything a strain
And with a subtle hint of resenting
The truth slipped out without a name

And something about this was exhausting
Having to learn you weren't the same
You covered up your ears and ignored me
Thinking you couldn't be to blame

Well, you were real eager to evade blame
With your lies tearing me apart
And at this point there's nothing you could say
To mend our paths that ripped apart

And I don't know if I'm really to blame
Or if you're projecting your shame
You've brought pain that won't ever go away
Yet you act like I'm still okay

Somehow I'm the one saying sorry
For something years back in our history
Don't you think I deserve the same
Or do you think I deserve this pain?

I feel broken inside, I won't lie
Your love turned to spite before my eyes
Was your warmth just a lie all along?
I'm lost in the dark, and you're long gone

So the years that had passed meant nothing
Nothing to you; nothing to me
When spring had left you did the same
But I guess summer revealed your true face

As much as I hate it, I'm missing you