Purdah - Lost Lyrics

No one understands how I feel, it's too hard to explain
They say I'm making a big deal, wanting to die every day
Smoke is my way to heal, but it don't remove the pain
He just threw me in the field, said son you could find your way
Anyone else notice that recently I've changed
Not too much good it's just been a lot of pain
And frustration from trying to stay in my lane
I keep on swerving now is that me or the Jane
Devil on my shoulder and I try to refrain
God keeps on pouring and it's clogged up my drain
And if it overfills I'll probably put one in my brain
See I'm f*****g heated feel the blood boil in my vein
N****s say they f**k with me, I feel like a loser
Say I wanna' die and I cover it with humor
Depression is a cancer with no f*****g tumor
Ain't no cure, You gotta' learn to live through her
Well look at this, Now ain't this some s**t
Only one I got is my consciousness
Most of you n****s fake don't give a f**k who it is
Movin' solo dolo and thats how I live
No one understands how I feel, it's too hard to explain
They say I'm making a big deal, wanting to die every day
Smoke is my way to heal, but it don't remove the pain
He just threw me in the field, said son you could find your way
I know where I want to be but I'm lost
I'll take you there but your soul is the cost
God what the hell do you want me to do?
I sit and scream but you got me on mute
All I asked for was a couple of answers
I tried to be polite and talk to you with manners
Every days the same s**t I'm noticing a pattern
I'm about to give it up somethings got to happen faster
No one understands how I feel, it's too hard to explain
They say I am making a big deal, wanting to die every day
Smoke is my way to heal, but it don't remove the pain
He just threw me in the field, said son you could find your way