Pyrophoria - grey Lyrics

In the basement alone
A stone thrown
A stone's throw away
From a stone cold someday
They'll never pay
What does it take to betray
A throne unknown, in the way
Set ablaze they say
Queen in an ashtray
No work all play
Where do the lost stay
They all lied didn't they
Never the time of day
They didn't want a stray
I lived in a black and white array
But the indigo sky turned grey

What if I went blind
I think I had for a time
Not a sound mind
The whites of my eyes shined
But fault lines confined behind
I lose what I won't find
Down no beaten path, the line
Darkness suits me fine
I sit like in a goldmine
The opposite of cloud nine
Pain scale was derailed and jailed as a 9
Of the 5 stages of grief I was one out of five
White hurt my eyes, so defined
I never knew sunshine
Black suits me fine
Just not back and white combined

That's a lot of gray but it don't matter
Don't matter anyway

Let it be said
That red
Is color wheeled but was in its own instead
And I dread
It going to my head
I pled
Should I be dead
The color went out as I fled
I found a new way to be bled

I'm sitting in an empty bathtub
Grayscale I cannot snub
I cannot scrub
Off the lost love
The dream I must get rid of
When I do not watch myself from above
Turn off the old movie I give up
Throw up
Blow up
This shit and don't show up
To tomorrow to sew up
Whatever showed up
Of me from the dump truck
Just what the f*ck
Did I do for this luck
And why am I stuck
In maybe sos, I don't knows, how it goes, not what I chose, nothing grows, I am prose, I am open then close, I am goes to shows, I am who knows where do I goes
Where do I go from here, fear, near and dear, nearly a deer, in the headlights dear, drear, they steer, don't veer, girl gone all clear
This was not my best year
Or life where I chose to persevere

That's a lot of gray but it don't matter
Don't matter anyway

Where do I go
With nothing to show
Tooth and nail failed long ago
Where's the sunshine to my rainbow
There was never a pot of gold I'm told but as I grow old I know it's what you owe
Nothing to reap from the sow
Such is life though
And I have not a single duck in a row
I have a shadow
Taller than redwoods grow
On the grey scale I was a I don't know