QU4DE - Alone Lyrics

If it never mattered did it ever happen?
If so then why is it grafted into my heart beat
Picked up by a harpy just to be dropped
I don't say all this for you to feel bad for me
Dad I want you to come back for me
I know that you never will
I guess I'm better still
I don't smoke alone no more
I don't do coke alone no more
I don't pop pills alone no more
I did it all alone for sure
I did it all alone for sure
Alone, I did it all alone
With nowhere else to go
Trauma tryna get past it
If that don't work
Then go get plastered
Down at the bar with a couple of friends
Till they leave town
Then an impending break down
Coming your way I know that pain
I feel it like like every day
I know what it's like to feel alone
Learned that pain many moons ago
Many suns ago
Many rotations ago
I know what it's like to hide in the shadows when you're feeling anxious
And bastardized for all your actions
Got you wishing you just kept on masking
Got you asking why you was just made this way
I don't smoke alone no more
I don't do coke alone no more
I don't pop pills alone no more
I did it all alone for sure
I did it all alone for sure
Alone, I did it all alone
With nowhere else to go
Thrown head first in the deep end
They don't get it but that depends
I can't explain it
Use my words to paint it
Maybe they'll listen when I'm dead
Maybe that's the best I'll ever get
That's worrisome
Take my pain and bury it some
Down as deep as it goes
Down in the basement
Life is dangerous
I'm feeling anxious
But I'm sure that I can take this
Blessed by demons
Cursed with a halo
I don't think I'm destined for where they go
It won't change over night like faygo
Let it go, let it go
I still feel so alone