quietcoyotes - Chameleon Lyrics

Used to be open
If I felt it wrote it
Pen on paper words were flowing
I maintained a focus
Even though then I was only floating
Sorry if you're feeling ghosted
Thought that I could sail away
Escape no one would notice
With vision based on motion
Forgive me for how I'm coping
Thought I'd only need a moment
But esteem was tied to what was stolen
CPTSD no cap and stole quit
No perceiving me
No cap I'm frozen
Miss my friends they've been devoted
No minding me devoid of my emotion
Ask me how it's going
F*ck my voice is broken
Miss Pacific drowning in my ocean
No specifics when I haven't spoken
I couldn't say
How I been feeling these days
Trying to change
Feel stuck this way
I think I like it better when I hide away
I think I like it better better better better better
Pour the bottles in the sewer
She's had enough
I want you to say it
Sorry doesn't mean a thing to me
If you won't even be here with me
Changes and all
The hours bring us far from each other
So quick to dispose of the letters
Now you're looking for a body just for the summer
Got me wondering if you been like that
Glad I had never even cashed that check
You ought to know who really got your back