Spinning all alone
Reminiscing while
I sit in the dark
It ain't really reminiscing
If I was missing from the start
I'm always defending the people that
End up just breaking my heart
Just trying to fit in the puzzle
That I was never really part
People are disappointing
When they disappoint me
I feel bad
Wondering why I'm
Still feeling this way
I don't understand
Especially considering
That they took me
For all that I had
Time and time again
They're proving my point
It's actually sad
Who was hitting
Me up
When I was in
A wheelchair
For 2 months?
I couldn't stand up
But you ain't hit me up
And it ain't happen once
Do you know what it's like
To have to ask for help
And not give up
A front
In front of my mother
In front of my father
I was tearing ducts
Yes I don't wanna remember
That awful December
I felt like a burden
I couldn't stop hurting
I'm learning
That nothing in life here is certain, what's
What's funny it wasn't the physical
Was the mental
That's making me miserable
Had to switch to a life that was digital
Feeling clinical
Toxic positivity
Was cynical
State of my injuries?
Visual
But you still
Felt the need
To tell me
What I should or I shouldn't do
Could or I couldn't do
How I should
Be grateful
For all I have
I don't understand
How you can do that
When you never even
Spent a day in my situation
But when you did
Then you had the
Nerve to talk
Bitch, I couldn't walk
Now you out here
Like you been around the block
Now you out here
Like you know exactly what I was feeling
And dealing
With on the daily
Lately
I don't get it
I really don't know
It's funny
Now that I've said it
I really don't know