All for Nothing Video (MV)

I'm driving reckless, My girl's nervous
Cause she knows I look cool on the surface but my brain's running circles
What's this life's purpose?
Am i destined to be something
Or just get washed away with the currents of all these burdens
All these urges, I been refereeing back to my past versions
Like am I better than when I rapped those last verses?
Have I changed now that I've got some new wishes?
Is it too much to ask to seek my new ambitions?
No new bitches, like I lost my digits
Got some new restrictions that prohibit me from my weekly spirits
Now i weakly pivot towards the end of my limits
I'm not religious but begging God for some extra minutes
Like, don't take me now, I've got commitments
And I promised my mama a lot of life transitions
And this prison of a sickness
Isn't what I asked for when i claimed to be the illest
That was just a metaphor
I'm just here to spill my heart to you right now
Got that feeling i don't have the time to write it down
Used to be high, flying through the clouds
But I burnt my wings and I'd close my eyes before I hit the ground
And it was all for nothing
Overcome with this feeling that so numbing
And it was all for nothing
Stuck in the same place even tho I'm running
And it was all for nothing
I didn't want to let go, I tried clutching
And it was all for nothing
I've lost track of who I'm becoming
Constant eerie feeling
Tight chested like I'm sinking
That off timer in my head constantly ticking
Whats the point of sticking it out
Whats the end game about when I'm losing count of all who thought
We had it figured out
Its hard to look at the body count optimistically but
If you're not around, metaphorically or physically
May you rest in peace, if you happen to leave before me
And may you live with ease if we happened to live separately
Thumbs fiddling, thoughts skipping that feeling that something is always missing
And I'm tired of overthinking
So now I'm not depressed anymore, I'm just going through rough times
I'm not an insomniac, I'm just having some bad nights
I'm just confused, I haven't lost my will to survive
I'm not worried, I'm thankful to be alive
I'm thankful they tell me not to think otherwise
I'm thankful buy into it even if tho a beautiful lie
I'm just here to spill my heart to you right now
Got that feeling i don't have the time to write it down
Used to be high, flying through the clouds
But I burnt my wings and I'd close my eyes before I hit the ground
And it was all for nothing
Overcome with this feeling that so numbing
And it was all for nothing
Stuck in the same place even tho I'm running
And it was all for nothing
I didn't want to let go, I tried clutching
And it was all for nothing
I've lost track of who I'm becoming