R3nder - My Life (feat. Flimsy) Lyrics

You All Call
Me fake it's like
Every day now I
Wake and bake
Before I jump into
A lake in an attempt
To suicide it's like
I tempt myself it's
Not worth it I'm
Convinced I should've
Died at birth because
I always have migraines
It's hard to work on these
Days now because I feel
Like I'm stuck in chains
There's not much I can
Do when I get these pains
Daily it's like I can see my
Veins but the pain still
Remains there my eyes
Have strains for looking
At lyrics for too long it's
Like I should get a gun
And blast my brains all
Over the wall I find it so
Hard to switch lanes on
Days I could say something
Like I'm finally rich
But my mental are in a ditch
All of you are like 6ix9ine
You snitch like a bitch
F*ck Mikey Fitch

All these DMs every day
Asking me to write away
I say I'll do it right away
I'm playing music night and day
I get lost in my thoughts
I'm on my path yet still I'm lost
I feel my heart turning to frost
Then light a cig, but at what cost
Doctor gave me medication
Therapy used meditation
Said I need some inspiration
Writing gets my dedication
Locked up in a room just writing these raps
Destined for doom, but I'm fighting the traps
Made a big boom, without lighting the straps
Now I am the dude "so delighting with the tracks"
I don't wanna rap, wanna help people get better
But it's become a trap, I can't get free from this debtor
And y'all wouldn't know my name if I never even met her
But if the decision came, I would leave y'all to go get her
Y'all don't understand, it's a feeling in my heart
They say I'm not a man, cause I'm crying in the dark
And when she's not in my hand, the dying tends to start
I could make a hundred grand, but I'd still feel torn apart
I'm not in this for monetary gain Just tryna get rid of momentary pain
Send me a beat, guarantee it's getting slain
There's a million things going on in my brain
But y'all say you feel my strife
You cut a vein using a knife
But y'all are scared like Barney Fife
So you could never feel my life