Racing Days - This Is How I Drive at Night Lyrics

I had a sleepover with your ghost
The kind where we would stay up all night talking
You know I carry you around like my Jansport
It makes me feel like we're together walking
Around the four ponds that froze beneath the new year
I should've done more to save you, man
I'm sorry
I used to dream of the day when I wouldn't know fear
And now I'm wishing it would just come back and mark me
Because I linger on your doorstep
Because I just watch flames flicker
Because I play tunes by fresh dirt
'Cause I play favorites, I'm guilty
Yeah I'm sitting in my bedroom
And I'm letting all the lines blur
I'm sitting at the traffic lights
And all of the sudden tears flow
I've been hitting the courts at night
Way we used to back in July 2010
But now my fingers go red
I think this ball is dead
I drive around at night
Just trying to see the signs
Just trying to feel alive
I'm just trying to feel alive
I drive around at night
Just trying to see the signs
Just trying to feel alive
I'm just trying to feel alive
I drive around at night
Just trying to see the signs
Just trying to feel alive
I'm just trying to feel alive
I drive around at night
Just trying to see the signs
Just trying to feel alive
I'm just trying to feel alive
I drive around at night
Just trying to see the signs
Just trying to feel alive
I'm just trying to feel alive
Just trying to feel alive
I'm just trying to feel alive