And I'm around the logs, sitting with the boys
My minds abyssal, I think I've made my choice
I look at their faces and start to cry
Why do i want to die, why do i say goodbye
Why do i tie this noose around my neck
Or take it away for a sec. I put a gun to my head
Why do I want to be dead, doesn't matter anymore anyway
I be looking for the change but its my final day
I have no words just action okay
Just like the heavy led killing spray
The screen gleams a bright light
Maybe that's why I barely sleep at night
Swarmed by hoards of thoughts
And honestly it overwhelms me
So many of them I can't see
Yeah, I nearly ruined everything
All these people are telling me I ain't anything
I'm just a roadblock in their lives
Preventing all their dreams
But all they have ahead is drinking lean
Smoking darts and some weed
Weekends be the best days
No friends might celebrate
Life feels like a blind date
No bitch I'm not straight
Always thinking about my weight
Might not be the best trait
All I want is a soulmate
I don't want to f*cking debate
About shit we don't tolerate
Think my soul needs a translate
Soul heavy like a paperweight
From shit might separate
Life bitch might abdicate
Exterminate, Levitate
Like I'm lightweight
Cold steel on my waist
I'm Bursting with tears
Pull back the slide and nobody hears
Temple at gunpoint and eyes full of fear
I bid farewell and see faces steer
Shotgun horror it covers their heads
Too late now I'm already dead
Already dead
The screen gleams a bright light
Maybe that's why I barely sleep at night
Swarmed by hoards of thoughts
And honestly it overwhelms me
So many of them I can't see
Yeah, I nearly ruined everything
All these people are telling me I ain't anything
I'm just a roadblock in their lives
Preventing all their dreams
But all they have ahead is drinking lean
Smoking darts and some weed