Rashay - First Child Lyrics

Will I ever blow
Only lord knows
No I aint Derrick
But I f*cking Rose
Look at the path I chose
And the way I live
I regret so many things that I f*cking did

But ain't no time to cry
I got brothers that died I ain't tell them bye
Lord please tell me why
You had to take them young
And please explain
Only thing that heals my pain
Is my sons smile
I cant wait to tell the fam that we on now
Cause I feel obligated Im the first child
Remember nights me and the bros was
Sleeping on the ground
I got niggas still locked inside the dog pound
And they some blood hounds
That don't know right from wrong
I got so much pain cant put in a song
I pray for my moms though we don't get along
Every time I rap I be speaking in tongues

Will I ever blow
Only lord knows
No I aint Derrick
But I f*cking Rose
Look at the path I chose
And the way I live
I regret so many things that I f*cking did

Will I ever blow
Only lord knows
No I aint Derrick
But I f*cking Rose
Look at the path I chose
And the way I live
I regret so many things that I f*cking did

I just pray that the lord forgive me for my sins
Took so many Ls but they was on the chin
I got a grandad that did seventeen in the pen
But as soon as he got out
My nigga went and bought a Benz
So what that tell you dog
That hustle in my f*cking skin
Im making money I a'int really got no time for friends
I live the life I say I live
The rest of y'all pretend
Man y'all so phony
Cant believe I use to call y'all homies
I spent my last
Now y'all act like y'all don't even know me
But thats okay
Ima get this money by my lonely
Niggas the fakest
Know y'all hearts is fill with so much hatred
Tell me y'all love me
But y'all really hoping I don't make it
But tie your laces cause Im off
To the f*cking races
Came a long way
From staying in my cousins basement
The devil been working on me
And I got to shake him
Lord told me just be patient
But Im tired of waiting

Will I ever blow
Only lord knows
No I aint Derrick
But I f*cking Rose
Look at the path I chose
And the way I live
I regret so many things that I f*cking did

Will I ever blow
Only lord knows
No I aint Derrick
But I f*cking Rose
Look at the path I chose
And the way I live
I regret so many things that I f*cking did

But ain't no time to cry
I got brothers that died I ain't tell them bye
Lord please tell me why
You had to take them young
And please explain
Only thing that heals my pain
Is my sons smile
I cant wait to tell the fam that we on now
Cause I feel obligated Im the first child