Ratthew - full grown Lyrics

Winter skips through fall and
Then my body is a mess
It was sunshine fun 'til daylight savings won
Now we see the sun shine less
I always said I'd find a warmer place
When I am grown
I'm damn near twenty three
With a film degree
Still living in my parents home
Did I let you down
When I stepped in that door
Should've only been the summer
But I'm staying for more
God can you kill me now
'Cause I've done all that you wanted
Made amends with former friends
Take me now I might come running
But I'm drinking less while I'm in these walls
I'm a pseudo chef drowning in beef broth
Got one winter left I don't care the cost
I'm getting gone before I'm truly lost
I often look back and say
Boy what have you done
A college grad is half a man
Without a real job son
Do you see the pain
Deep in my bones
Half my check on rent
The other loans
I'm real fed up
With the life I own
I don't feel full grown
So let's go
On back
To sitting on a school bus
Talking smack
And finding my first crush
Stay away from
Kids that wanna do drugs
I'm tired of feeling
Full grown
When I stop at Dunkin' people stare
What's this kid still doing here
He looks different with a beard
His dreams turned out with nothing
He talks a lot he must have some nerve
To think he'll find joy on this earth
How much is his life really worth
This whole time he has been bluffing
Did I let you down
When I stepped in that door
Should've only been the summer
But I'm staying for more
God can you kill me now
'Cause I've done all that you wanted
Made amends with former friends
Take me now I might come running
But I'm drinking less while I'm in these walls
I'm a pseudo chef drowning in beef broth
Got one winter left I don't care the cost
I'm getting gone before I'm truly lost
I often look back and say
Boy what have you done
A college grad is half a man
Without a real job son
Do you see the pain
Deep in my bones
Half my check on rent
The other loans
I'm real fed up
With the life I own
I don't feel full grown
So I'll pack my bags
And sing my songs
Force myself to feel full grown
The time is now
And the time is right
I'm moving out
Gotta catch my flight
Venture out to the great unknown
If all else fails I can go back home
I'm ready to
Move on
I often look back and say
Boy what have you done
A college grad is half a man
Without a real job son
Do you see the pain
Deep in my bones
Half my check on rent
The other loans
I'm real fed up
With the life I own
I don't feel full grown
So let's go
On back
To sitting on a school bus
Talking smack
And finding my first crush
Stay away from
Kids that wanna do drugs
I'm tired of feeling
Full grown
I'm tired of feeling
Full grown
I'm tired of feeling
Full grown
Full grown