RazeGauge - My Friends Are Going Through Lyrics

Can't believe my eyes, all i see is grief
Turning into beef settled in the streets
Friends trying to end it all saying rest in peace
I got friends that were gang members trying to get free

I know people that close to me lied to
I know who wants revenge from high school
Those who say it's my life and my rules
I know friends of mine who tried committing suicide too

You disgust me, don't think its so sweet
Things not black and white why we have this grief
People hungry and they stealing bread just to eat
My friends looked down on cause of poverty

Kids looking up to frauds getting mad views
Shootings more prevalent on the news
Im watching friends get drunk and they dont have a clue
That bottle is them bottled up i was you

Going through
I am you going through
You don't understand that I do relate
You don't understand that I see your pain
You don't understand that I understand
I understand the pain
I feel the weight

Not a big fan of change
Let's get this one thing clear
Only thing has forever stayed consistent in life is tears
But honestly i aint even did that
Its been a minute and i cant get it back
Now Im just hurt and always a bit sad
Been a few months since i had a big laugh

Guess to be honest i've been dealing with big dreams
And wondering if ever anybody will get me
Thinking im obsolete. Yeah, you better forget me
Im having a hard time just to forgive me
And daily, some of the things I always battle
On top of the fickle people that have always overshadowed
And letting people down when they givin' me the power
I wish that I was farther, and i wish you were prouder

(But i let you down,
And I beat myself up for it to this day.
I don't ever live it down.
I still see your frown.
And i still see you pick on me.
Even when i cried in front of you!)

That was me!

Going through
I am ME going through
You dont understand that i do relate
You don;t understand that i see your pain
You don't understand that i understand
I understand the pain
I feel the weight