2 AM Video (MV)

At times I feel so lost I don't know where to run
Can't hide these problems they run up on me like karma's son
Minds always racing even when Im in a stable place
Overthinking got me moving too fast still out of shape
These thoughts got me troubled dreaming my final option
No way I could be behind a desk for hours non stopping
I'll do things for this music that probably shouldn't be said
Keep it to myself like everything that's inside of my head
Yea I got a great family and the bestest of friends
At times I feel like I'm just ranting when I'm tryna vent
Keeping quiet till I get home so I can talk to the beat
She treat me so good Its guaranteed that she won't cheat
I'll never ask for someone to feel sympathy towards me
Just understanding of how I am and how I chose to be
So much on my mind half of y'all wouldn't comprehend
Anxious for the future only God knows what will happen then
Its 2. A.M minds always tied around so many knots
From heartbreaks to anxiety to will I make my parents sob
From tears of joy or cuz they fearing for me
I know they support my vision but is it as vivid as I'd like it to be
These nights go to days with the I stay working
Not watching my health and my mind is really hurting
I just wish I had someone that can hold me down
Someone who can keep a promise and not have me looking like a clown
I'm the only one who pushes myself never lacking motivation
I stay to myself can't talk about the moves that I'm making
You'll see for yourself until then I'll see you later
Devils working overtime but God dont take vacations
They tell me at times you gotta have a Plan B
I'm too focused on Plan A I can't follow what you think
I'll risk everything just to make it in this music shit
Yea it comes with risks but MVPS are always up for it
One thing I fear is if I make it will I feel empty
Will I have everyone thats here now or will they be tempted
To stick around for the glamour and all of the clout
Shouldn't think negative but it's just a possible doubt
When it's the night I think about the future think about the past
Not enjoying the present due to me moving too fast
Can't think bad throughout the day that shit will slow me down
Keep all these thoughts in a box open it when no ones around
Lay this shit on the pad and speak my thoughts aloud
Record it mix it master it put it out to the crowd
Not depressed just stressed these thoughts get the best
Of me, never the less it's every day that I'm blessed to see
Thankful for my family and thankful for my clique thankful for the heartbreaks
And all the stupid shit
If God gave me an easy route it wouldn't be a good ride
Still on the journey with my grind we'll get there in no time
Another thought that scares me is will I die too young?
Living life with my homies but this city don't care for no one
The hood can make or break you as an individual
Elevate your perspective now you following new principles
Crazy how Too much living can get me 6 ft. Deep
Everything can change in a second now it's rest in peace
Ima keep living my life and pray that God protects me
Work harder than the devil cuz I know he's out to get me
These the thoughts I stay thinking about at this time
2 A.M be hurting me but I can't do drugs to ease my mind
Choosing wisely by writing out all of these lines
This a tough part in my life but I'll be alright
Don't hold shit in but find a way to feel relief
Vent to somebody that way after that you can breathe
Or find something that can put your mind right at ease
Cause bottled up emotions can lead to negative things
Moving way too fast
Someone slow me down
I'm bound to crash
Someone ease me right now