I was always the kid that asked to play
Didn't realize that I been in the game
Friendships begin and fade away
But memories stay the same
Trying to control the thoughts that cross my mind
I don't wanna live in the past all the time
I'm the way I am cuz I survived
All the stories of my life intertwined
I realize that you don't care
You don't wanna see me win
Can't imagine why you always just walk away
No, you don't even care about me
Or what I got say
But when I make you look good, you turn my way
Don't make me a placeholder, ooh
Done being a placeholder, ooh
Now that I'm older than before
I realize I've been undercut, I'm worth much more
Friendships I had went separate ways
Still memories stay the same
Learning self-control to heal the heart and mind
Choosing when to live in moment and rewind
I know I gotta be the change I see
Take in every moment, leave the past behind
I know I really care for you
And I wanna see you win
Just imagine all the great things will come your way
I really, really care about you
Just watch the words you say
Gonna try my best every day
But don't make me a placeholder ooh
And I won't make you my placeholder ooh
I run, I jump, and trip, and fall
And live my life to risk it all
For dreaming, believing
I hear the birds that chirp they tell me
Take me 'cross this universe
Where no one can find me
'Cause I don't care
I just wanted you there
But I couldn't reach you were up in space
You never even cared about me
Or what I had to say
Now you tryna be cool baby, it's too late
I was always the kid that asked to play
Didn't realize that I been in the game this whole time