REFUGIO - 196 (Loving U) Lyrics

Now that you are saved
What is next?
The answer to that question is the most important decision of your entire lifetime
I'll cross that bridge when everything back to normal
I'll do it tomorrow
Nah maybe when I wake up
After I eat some breakfast, okay after I take lunch
Do it on my off day, lemme wait until my paystub
Sometimes my brain feel like it's ruled by a dictator
And it never do me favors
2 decades plus living in this procrasti-nation
You always gotta a reason, always got excuses
A perpetual victim, sorry if it sound too ruthless
Yes I been hurt, yes I been damaged
But that don't mean I can't put in the practice
That don't mean I can't turn on the camera
That don't mean I can't turn on the sample
That don't mean I can't set an example
For the kids like me that don't believe what they can do
Took me til now to see my problems substantial
Cuz now I'm 23 and my heart's still so fragile
Therapist talk to me but I'm still my own council
I do this shit for free a fee of green looking doubtful
Gon be rappin over beats til I'm one with the ground too
Too much weight to bear getting tired of all this bad news
Remembering that now don't subtract what you'll amount to
I hate this f*ckin game but I'm still asking for round two
These thoughts in my head
Keep swirling around
They grabbing my leg
And pulling me down
And they keep pulling me down until I can't see tomorrow
Pulling me down until I can't see
Pulling me down until I can't see tomorrow
Pulling me down until I can't see
Pulling me down until I can't see tomorrow
Yeah loving you is complicated
Often dangerous
Trusting you is hard when you constantly deflated
Seem like everything positive yo thoughts erasin
The thought that somebody might be responsible for your pain is
Easier to swallow when you realize love ain't painless
Makes room for the truths you wasn't comfortable explaining
You say you honest with yourself but you'd never become the plaintiff
You boxing with yourself but you never went under training
Keep on harming myself but not ready for undertaker
I just wanna feel nothing, I just wanna feel something
Anything to ease my mind but rejecting real substance
If it don't come from inside how do you know it's real loving
Tell me
Cuz f*ck if I know
I been known what's best for me but it's hard to follow
And if it was up to me, shit I'd be gone tomorrow
Somewhere out amongst the trees to help me release this sorrow
From these thoughts in my head
Keep swirling around
They grabbing my leg
And pulling me down
And they keep pulling me down until I can't see tomorrow
Pulling me down until I can't see tomorrow
These thoughts in my head
Keep swirling around
They grabbing my leg
And pulling me down
Said they pulling me down until I can't see
Pulling me down until I can't see tomorrow
Down, down below the water
Down, down below the water
Down, down below the water
Down, down below the water
Down below the water, down
Down below the water, down
Down below the water
Down below the water