Questions about God Video (MV)

Heavenly Father
Lord up above
I came here tonight
A question thought up
Some shit just went down
I'm sorry for bad mouth
I'm part of my ways south
I'm calm when in your arms
Please God hear my prayer
My problems need the attention of my savior
My fault I forgot to ask you how your day was
But please I need your help to know what I should do
The path I take is up to you; I don't want fault for hating you
I had questions in the past
I was different now I'm back
Wish I knew where I would go when I stop breathing on this globe
I was only four when I was thinking this shit before
Why you curse me with this fear
I wanna close my eyes and sleep
Scared of not being able to be there, protect my family
I don't wanna go no where without letting my daughter breathe
I wanna let this girl know that I just want her for me
I don't wanna not be able to watch my family eat
Heavenly Father
Lord up above
I came here tonight
A question thought up
Some shit just went down
I'm sorry for bad mouth
I'm part of my ways south
I'm calm when in your arms
I hope this prayer reach you well
I come again to reach you, well
See, I got issues with some people
I need help to know what to do
Last girl tripping but shit was different
See, I'm not mad
Cause I'm happy that she was the one
That made me a better man
There's this guy, who by surprise
Just shows up when my dawgs was over
Hit himself, he hit him too
That shit was burnt inside my mind
We get him covered, he's in the hospital now
Then I get a text and he's talking shit about us
Wow
He text me drunken, my heart sunken
My father don't believe my music will be the thing
That can make my fans feel something
I don't wanna hate
Please God, I don't wanna hate
But some people are just feeble
And don't get to keep my name
Heavenly Father
Lord up above
I came here tonight
A question thought up
Some shit just went down
I'm sorry for bad mouth
I'm part of my ways south
I'm calm when in your arms
My God please forgive me
I will not deceive you
I want to tell the truth
The story as it was
My head dark, my mind sunk
I'm happy then switched up
My problems get pushed up
I think more, and thought of
A knife cut my forearm
I think I can feel something
My life in the palm
And I think I can see me breathe
A die decides my fate
And I think I can see the dream
Roulette for my soul
And I think I can see the green
Despite what I'm told
I don't know what I'm supposed to believe
So many people lie for nothing
There's no one you can see
I just wanna trust the ones I know
But they just wanna leak
I just wanna understand but
Now I just wanna f*cking leave
Heavenly Father
Lord up above
I came here tonight
A question thought up
Some shit just went down
I'm sorry for bad mouth
I'm part of my ways south
I'm calm when in your arms
I don't know who you are
But I do know that you exist
If you listen to this, then
I hope that you can tell me this
Is heaven real?
Or is it just pitch black
How it was before my birth
How it was before this track
Can you forgive me for that
I don't got a lot of time
I just wish I knew the line
Why some people hate those different
I don't get it
It's a war across your mind
And I don't want that for the people
Just be happy with yourself and then
All will be forgiven
I just wish I knew if I can be forgiven
I can see the difference
'Tween the glint in vision
I don't need to listen
I'm just selfish and I don't deserve to love
God please forgive me, I'm just so sorry
I wanna live there
Heavenly Father
Lord up above
I came here tonight
A question thought up
Some shit just went down
I'm sorry for bad mouth
I'm part of my ways south
I'm calm when in your arms