Renaps - Microphones Lyrics

All the times I think about someone else
In my mind I put it all on a shelf
I just wanna be seen for me
But it'll never happen until I start bleeding
Finding meaning? No you won't
Scream your life in microphones
Do I even care? Do I really know
Yes I do, yes I do, just makin' excuses
I'm feeling so used by my manipulation
Tell em I'm the worst, so there'll be no savin
But get me mad, That's a whole new story
You might be a critic, but death is my glory
And I die often- emerge a new person, old me in a coffin
Come to the grave and meet a past that's morphin
Sometimes I don't know, the difference between
Who I am today versus who I've been, what I've seen
In my own mirror see a smudge and a gleam
Somethin' so true and somethin' so mean
Somethin' you like and somethin' unseen
The truth is- I don't, wanna hear me, but I'll do it so well
And I've waited so long to sing to myself
Because all that hell, all that pain
That's the guilt that you carry when they say your name
And why you chose your father while you have a mother
They all couldn't be bothered
And the hurt's not free, you don't feel you could have it
Because when you were young you knew life was savage
We ignore those patterns so we do not speak
And they're both alive so you never feel release cuz
You never believe that you're hurtin' at all
Designed to be there if one of them fall
So you grow up old waitin' for the next day
Never knowin' all your feelings til' it seems too late
And the whole way through you were feelin' the ground
Quiet ears to the wall until you get so loud
And you look at yourself
"Are you so proud, that you took so long?" and
It's always your fault, and it's never in the song
Cuz you couldn't get it out and you couldn't understand
Til' you reach to yourself, say
"Take my hand, Take my hand"
All these people don't know things
And you find a way to forgive them, before you know
That the pain they gave, made a small adult
Now I pound it out on the keys like a hammer
Always workin' on my house so I go up the ladder
Hadda figure it out, how to reach my own standard
A set of rules that never even mattered to me
Wanna hide my face- leave me the dark and just go away
Don't wanna be alone, but i'd rather not stay
Couldn't see the path, but I can choose the way
So i'm grateful- I was born with no cables, see
My dreams- always served first at the table
All the times I think about someone else
In my mind I put it all on a shelf
I just wanna be seen for me
But it'll never happen until I start bleeding
Finding meaning? No you won't
Scream your life in microphones
Scream your life in microphones
Scream your life in microphones
All the times I think about someone else
In my mind I put it all on a shelf
I just wanna be seen for me
But it'll never happen until I start bleeding
Fine, i'm leavin', No you won't
Scream your life in microphones
Scream your life in microphones
Scream your life scream your life in microphones
No siblings, no missing
No friends, no living
No real real talk that'll change my life
Blah blah got a pen so that's why I write
When when did I start to fight that anger?
Just bursts out ya mouth! And they all see danger
In these moments, they all become strangers
Speak your mind and become a real painter
The thing I love most is you figure it out
They wanted you around cuz you had no mouth
Sweet little Reen like I live down south
But i'm here up north tryna lose this doubt
And they make you feel nuts and they back away slow
And they blame it on you like "where did you go?", well
That's just crazy, if you knew my past
Tolerance strong, gotta move away fast
Bullshit's scary and I'm into my craft
Can't be landin' on my knees when I got these plans
Now I'm left standing on a leg that knows
That I can't be stopped because I go
And all the kids did since we last spoke
Was get more head, keep it in their throat
See, this is the path that I feel as the goat
Your not willin' to climb? Well keep diggin' your moat
Until the wave's so big, that it washed your coat
And the color drips out and you're all alone
Don't come to me, I cannot stay
The fear is that I can, and you can't relate
It's all convenient and I will not wait
The difference between us is
You wanna keep living in, living in
All of your pain
All the times I think about someone else
All the times I think about someone else
All the times I think about someone else
All the times all the times all the times
All the times all the times
E-L-S-E- ELSE ELSE E-L
E-L-S-E- ELSE ELSE E-L
E-L-S-E- ELSE ELSE E-L
All the times all the times all the times
All the times all the times
That's way too many times
That's way too That's way too many times
That really is a lotta f*ckin' times
All the times all the times all the times
All the times all the times