Ridzee - A Bitch Ruined Me Lyrics

F*cked me long ago
Still i miss your soul
Still i miss your touch
The way we loved before.
Why'd you leave me out
Here just on my own
You said you'll stick around
Until this time just goes.
You f*cked me up in every piece.
You f*cked up my whole mental peace.
You promised me your loyalty and all you're doin is avoiding me.
You such a bitch you ruined me.
You such a girl killed all of me.
Now people ask why you so numb?
I tell them she took all of me.
From we back to me its just pain man honestly.
I'm dead inside out what's left for me to feel.
Pain's real time's unreal every minute feels eternity.
God please just put me to rest I'm so done with this world honestly.
Damn
You said you'll always stay with me
You'll hold my hands through miseries
But you've thrown me in misery.
Please say you're still here with me
My mind still saying you're here with me
Although you broke me in million piece
Please come back home and gimme peace.
And change this me back to we.
I'm writing this to ease my pain
Coz if i don't imma cut this vein.
Without you my life feels so vain
With this henny lone in rain.
Girls like you are the reason f*ck boys are made.
Yeah you f*cked me up in billion pieces.
And you just smiled and said you didn't mean it.
F*cked me long ago
Still i miss your soul
Still i miss your touch
The way we loved before.
Why'd you leave me out
Here just on my own
You said you'll stick around
Until this time just goes.
Never think bout coming back
Coz if i do I'm still not back
You see this knife behind my back?
Its you babe still you want me back?
Our pictures like pain's on that rack.
Our memories are now like a shack.
Not sober coz I'm tryna get back.
Come kill me more my life's all black.
I don't know nothing I've lost all track.
I'm spitting my feels eventho you feel its wack.
My mind's full yes its fully pain packed
My soul in pain yes its goin all mad.
F*ck
Eventho you lied to me but I'm spitting true facts. Duh
Pain's all i feel and pain's all i deal.
I feel so f*cked up at some times that i don't wanna breathe.
You messed my head in a such a way my therapist seems scared.
She asks how I'm breathing i said lit a J hope's there.
She says i give therapies i don't see hope in here.
I said that shut the fck up bitch i know that she'll be here.
Thoughts of you being naked in someone's bed.
Gives me feels what its like to be already dead.
Why did you come in my life when this was your plan?
You planned to f*ck me up babe damn you did it well.
Now because of you i take these pills to put me to rest.
Now because of you when i sleep i pray please be my last breath.
Anxiety's killing me babe don't you think bout me even for sec?
Yes you don't that's why you left putting me in death bed.
Saw your picture with your new man you look happy as hell.
But this new home is built on my grave that's why i said hell.
I could rant about pain and about these meds
But now you are gone and you're never coming back.
And maybe I'll have to accept that fact.