Righteous J - My Story Lyrics

I woke up yesterday and was torn apart
I have a kid on the way and no support
I'm trying to work hard but it just don't work
And I can't seem to stop with all the hurt
From my past being left alone
A Child on the way from my baby girl
She drank while I was in birth
I'm talking about my mom
I'm talking bout my hurt
But it just don't work
You see
I just can't understand anything anymore
From all pain and the hurt
Sent me straight to a herse
Maybe a looney bin is where I belong
Cause I can't settle with all these wrongs
That I've done
But I tell you ma
You didn't screw up when you loved me all
When no one else I did
I was a black sheep
They called me a kid and I tore up the streets
I Was a wrecking ball
A recking force
Whenever I called
Trouble with the law
Is where I fall

Sam
I wanna let you know
That you're not alone
In this world
Where you call
I'll be there
For you when you fall
I love you
And I'm sorry all
I know I said
Some really messed up things
And I hurt you
In messed up ways
Like grab you by your throat
And yell at your shame
But know I was drunk
And it made me blank

And Tyler
I'm sorry mane
I love you dawg
And I feel your shame
I was there too
I was worse tho
I'm proud of you son
You making me cry
As I speak these words
That I want to say
To your face
But can't find the courage
To give you more
I cry
When I hear you say
The raps that you are writing now
In this moment
Is all a cloud
I'm a blur
I know
In your life
I know you forgive me
But I can't stop the fight
In my mental head
And I'm trying to quit all the drugs
That make you sick
Just know
I'm here for you
Be in contact with me
Till the bitter end
Till I fall down
Till I hit the wall
Till I drown now
To the fight now
I'm breathing for air
And I can't think
What i did
Is stuck
I know
I can't change the past
I know and I can't
But know I'm sorry

Dad
You need to know
That what you wrote is all a blur
All the letters you wrote me is all a blur
Because you were never there
For all my hurt
You were in prison
I know
That doesn't change a thing
I was very hurt by the rings
The pain you caused
Mental and physical
Is where I fall
You called me this and called me that
Hit me in the face and called me that
I know you were drunk
And it didn't mean a thing
Just know
It's okay Dad I have forgave
All your trespasses
I have a Savior that taught me to forgive
I hope you find him too
And learn how to truly live