Rituals of Mine - No Time to Go Numb Lyrics

We could forgive, they would like us to
Give up on reason to get to you

Old pain, never get used it
This hate, never get used it
These words have us going backwards
These thoughts, never get used

Over my body, the weight of you
Silence in here when I think of you
We've got to keep this all from going backwards
I tell myself every night

Every night
Every night

What's with this mediocrity?
I need to say just what I mean
Feel like this is on top of me
Feels like this is the only thing
On my mind
Where is the solace?
If I was a him, I would have sold this for double the worth but still hold it
And everyone knows this

I carry the weight
I carry the means
Carry it on top of me

I carry the joy
I carry the pain
Hold it all evenly

I learned the hard way that pain replays
It never leaves easily
It only comes easily

My silence won't do me any favors
No time to go numb
No metaphor for when hope's gone

Your silence won't do you any favors
No time to go numb
No metaphor

I tell myself
Every night