RIVALS - Change Things (feat. Dutch Melrose) Lyrics

Tried to find hope In happiness
But at some point I lost my plans
Think I faded in this process
And the reaper is my only friend
Tryina find my way home
Sitting pretty on my tombstone, smile wide
Got close with the graveyard
Trying to find where to start, cause I'm casket sized
Can't seem to change things
Wearing white to my funeral
I'll probably die alone
So bitter and I'm staying cold
Wearing all white Gucci in this chapel knowing I can't change things, change things
Flex that I'm stronger than I really am but I can't, change me, change me
Devil knows I don't keep my friends
Heaven says I should have regrets
Do you think they'd care if I went
Cause at this point I feel like I'm spent
Ain't no other way to change it now
This can't be everything I am
This ain't gonna be the end
So tell me I did alright fill the void I'll never be
Runnin' from the hillside your words hanging over me
It's easy to see it
I only need to believe it
Cause if I try to change the past I'll I hear is dial tones
I want everything to last but it's out of my control
I can only do me and I'll put that on god
I can't be what I'm not