New Me Video (MV)

Unruly, it's yours truly
Burning up the lala
Blowing out the oohwee
Life that's a movie
Shit getting too deep
Throwing out the old one
Make myself a new me
I need to levitate
I prolly need to meditate
There's prolly like a hundred unhealthy habits to eliminate
I'm just trying to get it straight
I'm just trying to demonstrate
I'm having trouble regulating half the f*cking shit I say
I'm overthinking everything
So I overmedicate
Then I overdedicate
Soon I'm over everything
People want my presence, but I'm fixated on yesterday
You got me f*cked up, but I'm still trying to bring my best today
People right and left of me
Say you don't look too stressed to me
And you look super blessed to me
Shit, you look like the best to me
How can I explain to them my craft of quarter century
I sabotaged and left it standing there to burn in effigy?
I stood in ashes there and picked up what was left of me
And cooked myself this recipe
I found where I was meant to be
Could have popped at 23, but needed to grow mentally
Lost myself, but found a way to make it all make sense to me
No regerts, but there's just shit I would do differently
There's people who rely on me now
People who depend on me
And when I talk to them they say that they just want what's best for me
But I'm so invested in
Making all of them succeed
I let too many people in
I could have been more selfish then
I think I need to think of me
I should have never dropped the pen
My therapist would say to me "you're should-ing on yourself" again
You know - woulda coulda shoulda type of shit
I used to keep it in
I'm spitting out
The bitterness
Of living this
Quote unquote legitimate
Business
Of working from my living room
When I had dreams that's bigger than
Anything or anyone envisioned then
I tried to tell em then no one was listening, nah
Unruly, it's yours truly
Burning up the lala
Blowing out the oohwee
Life that's a movie
Shit getting too deep
Throwing out the old one
Make myself a new me
From the ones who came with the value of pi
Yoga and chai
Sugar, spice and indigo dye
Comes a new invention from the Indian side
Shout out my brown people from the diaspora
We gon' chop it up together put some Kush in the sky
We gon' burn one for the time they made us divide
We gon' turn down all the violence push the beef to the side
Partition out this paper let it leaf down my arm
Pour that Johnnie Walker out - that is not what we on
No more - nah
The shit that we on is more - what?
The British government returning the Koh-i-Noor
And the Hope diamond too while we in the store
What you think that we Indus for?
ABCD I still put my foot in this flow
In my beanie, smoking bidi up in this hoe
And these lil battles too, bet we'll win this war
I feel my bloodline
Always had my blood boiling
Grew up in them sticks with them ignorant white guys
Always doing some kind of shit outside the confines
Driving down my block
Stopped by one-time
Too brown for my town
Too light for Mumbai
Too gone off indo
Too high for my moms
Finally hitting my stride
Finna finish out fly
Fit out more than fit in
I finally figured out why - I'm
Unruly, it's yours truly
Burning up the lala
Blowing out the oohwee
Life that's a movie
Shit getting too deep