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Desensitize my feelings and some more shit
'Cause if I feel too much, I'm on some hoe shit
And my focus? Hocus-pocus, then I'm on some broke shit
"Just barely getting by" shit
That "I can't even buy shit"
That "f*ck it, I'll get high so I won't cry" shit
To divert attention, so I get fly shit
Damn, I'm starting not to know who I am
At least they know ROCKSTARVR <3, that's who they see on the 'Gram
Tryna' maintain a public image gets exhausting off the cam
Lately I've been ghost, know that's exhausting for the fam
But these demons been persistent like they got Green Eggs and Ham
Girl, you know I'm low on bread so no I do not wanna jam
Just for now I gotta think because you still gon' order lamb
And I still got bills to pay
And now, need a place to stay
As of lately, I apologize for being in the way
Tried to tell you that not everything's about how much I make
Rather me tell you my feelings or look happy, but it's fake?
When I'm sitting half awake in the front seat
After a long, long night
A long, long night
What more can I do than what I'm doing now?
If I "took it wrong" then can you tell me how?
I know I been in my head for a while
Behind the wheel, putting up hella miles
Hopefully all this will lead to a smile
On your pretty, pretty face
'Cause if all this is in vain, I'll catch a pretty, pretty case
I don't play about my time which means I got no time to waste
Situation bittersweet but two completely different taste
I don't live life in regret but wish some things I could erase from my memory
These remedies however, create space
For me to remember to write
Hoping it makes me all right
Search for a beat that I like
Hit the stu, LED lights