Rodreep - B.O.K. Lyrics

I got these walls that I put up cause they seem to keep me safe
Grew up adopted and always felt out of place
Mind racin I wonder if ill ever be okay
These feelings that I feel I just want to go away
Why you ain't want me
Why couldn't you stay
Those are questions that ask myself every single day
The pain so deeply rooted
That you couldn't budge the hate
And the family that I had said that it was just a phase
Hoping and prayin that one day id find my way
People tried to understand but I couldn't just explain
Why I had this beast inside me and I'm constantly afraid
Of being left rejected or not good enough
Constantly haunted by all the shit that I coulda done
Just a couple years ago
These feelings that I woulda numbed
Shunned the ones that I shoulda loved
Put my faith in everything above
Cause god was with me every time I felt giving up
The roads long I feel lonely sometimes
Get stuck up in my head
Will I be okay
Will I make it through the night
Will I be alright
I guess ill leave that to God to decide
The roads long I feel lonely sometimes
Get stuck up in my head
Will I be okay
Will I make it through the night
Will I be alright
I guess ill leave that to God to decide
The roads long I feel lonely
Lonely
The roads long I feel lonely
I wonder if ill be ok
I feel lonely but ill be ok
If I never knew pain then I'd never know pleasure
I'm aquatinted with em both
So I try to live Better
Stay calm
Keep my chin up
I fall ima get up
Let that shit resonate when I listen
When I let some people go I really felt the distance
Always went against the grain
So you know I felt the friction
Convicted from my past
Well I'm living in my right now
Present time right now
My future looking bright now
I know just how that might sound
Got features of a lighthouse
So everywhere I go
Try to bring along a message of hope
Was hopeless for so long when I was caught in the dope
Had to invoke
Believe in somthin greater than me
I got a life today I ain't even seen in a dream
Recovery themed
Shout out to the ones that believed
I said shout out to the ones that believed
I said shout out to the ones that believed
The roads long I feel lonely sometimes
Get stuck up in my head
Will I be okay
Will I make it through the night
Will I be alright
I guess ill leave that to God to decide
The roads long I feel lonely sometimes
Get stuck up in my head
Will I be okay
Will I make it through the night
Will I be alright
I guess ill leave that to God to decide
The roads long I feel lonely
Lonely
The roads long I feel lonely
I wonder if ill be ok
I feel lonely but ill be ok