I've been working on myself,
And how I try and see the world now,
Working on compassion,
From the times that I've been let down.
Working on reactions,
For the people who have been around,
And saw me at my worst,
I love all of you for sticking round.
I was born with,
All the cards stacked against me.
Now I sometimes feel,
Like I'm moving too tensely,
I been walking on eggshells,
From trauma that prevents me,
From keeping my head forward,
Lookin back so they can't get me.
Don't speak to me,
About the pain and what hurts,
I've been dealing with the bullshit,
Since my own birth,
280 stitches in my head,
A few percs,
To keep me on the edge,
Of my bed,
Spewing more than words.
Right as I was born,
Already had a diagnosis,
Ain't the only one to have it,
But on me They all noticed,
As I came out the womb,
The bad news is coming soon,
Something wrong with the baby,
Right then I hope they knew that,
My life ain't ever been easy,
But imma be good,
You just gotta believe me,
I know that right now,
I'm feeling all too defeated,
But a little strength goes far,
It's all that we've ever needed.
It's all that we've ever needed,
Strength goes far,
It's all that we've ever needed,
Lemme hear your repeat it,
Strength goes far,
It's all that weve ever needed.
I don't need easy,
I need possible,
Feeling like with all the shit I've been through,
I'm unstoppable,
Feelin like at this point in my life,
Im just too croppable,
So let's just take the picture,
But to keep me in is optional.
F*ck that.
I'd rather not be at the function,
Rather be in my room,
Stuffin my face with some munchkins,
Rather be in the studio,
Working like a oven,
Than to deal with two faces,
On each person at the luncheon.
I never really fit in,
That's why I try to stand out,
I've seen a couple stand offs,
Never asked for handouts,
I've seen a couple people,
On the drugs,
Too strung out,
To get a breath out their lungs,
That's why I ain't never hung out.
My life ain't ever been easy,
But imma be good,
You just gotta believe me,
I know that right now,
I'm feeling all too defeated,
But a little strength goes far,
It's all that we've ever needed.
It's all that we've ever needed,
Strength goes far,
It's all that we've ever needed,
Lemme hear you repeat it,
Strength goes far,
It's all that we've ever needed.
Running outta patience,
And my body is past the aching,
Wanna change it.
I gotta change it.
I gotta make a plan,
Man I'm gonna f*ckin make it,
Cause I idolize the ones,
Who was on my tv screen,
And I idolized it once,
When I made it my own scene,
When I Made it on the news,
Just cause of another surgery.
And that was hurtin me,
Later when I found out,
I cut off all my hair,
And they didn't send it out for me,
Had no account for me.
And that's what it's been like,
My whole f*ckin life,
Need to cut something,
And they won't hand me the knife,
Need to spark my blunt,
And they won't hand me the light,
So I got tired of acting,
Like I was down for a fight,
I got tired of acting,
Like I was Down for my life,
When you ain't down for a call,
In the middle of the night.
They ain't down for it all,
So I ain't down for the sight,
Of them sticking around,
Just to use me out of spite.
Just to use me out of boredom,
Just to use me for the rights,
To say you were here when you weren't,
That's the shit that I don't like.
That's the shit I don't like,
That's the shit that I don't,