Rose the Black Cat - Not Gonna Fix Me Lyrics

I don't want no therapy. No bitch gonna fix me
I don't wanna think about that kid on his six speed
I don't wanna think cuz I know that he with me
Know that he ride. Know he think high of me
'Cause that's what I was. Was this your dream?
Was this what you see when you close your
Eyes and the lies that you told yourself just
Fade away and the thought of help just
Fades away and it all goes black. Just
Fade away and a brand new track just
Plays in your brain to save your soul 'cause
Impala was speaking in those dark nights of tweaking and you
Knew in your soul that you had to let it go but that
Thought was so cold that you couldn't let it go so you
Raced and you raced 'til you erased yourself now you
Down on your knees and you're begging for help

You're not gonna fix me. The sickness within me
Has always been with me. Thank God for my kidneys
Now please stay here with me. The scars I collect
All reflect the cards I've been dealt. I'm blessed

Can't you see the contradiction? Can't you see the call's from within?
Can't you see that I'm seeding ideas in your head so when you go back
To your bed you'll know the rest of all these rhymes. In all my time I've
Never felt so alive. I've never felt like it was my time more than it
Is right now, right here. Don't you fear what you don't understand
Please hold my hand. I'm not what you hear
I'm not like this all the time. Most of the time I'm so afraid of myself
I'm so afraid of success I don't even know that I'm blessed until I
Look in the mirror and I say, "I love myself" I remember
I couldn't do that. I used drugs to avoid that. I used
Myself like a toy bat. I threw myself at everything that wasn't
Like what I knew. I didn't like what I knew. I was tired of
You. I was tired of me. Sick of all this bullshit and
Sick and tired of tree. Sick and tired of being sick and tired
You see. And I've heard it all before these meetings get overplayed
But maybe you haven't heard it before so hear this

You're not gonna fix me. The sickness within me
Has always been with me. Thank God for my kidneys
Now please stay here with me. The scars I collect
All reflect the cards I've been dealt. I'm blessed

I'm blessed. I'm blessed. I'm truly blessed today
No less than you. I'm no better, it's true
If I look in your eyes, I can see you (Do you see me?)
Do you feel me? I don't need a reason, don't need to pretend
(Do you see me?)