I Feel Video (MV)

There was a girl and she was a curse bestowed on me
Her name was A, I fell in love helplessly
I blame it all on the delusion and what wasn't there
I blame it all on the misunderstanding of what love is
Cause now I can say it
Right when I feel it
I couldn't before
Even when I was smitten
Even pre-reconstruction
Your knee-jerk reaction
Was spot-on, you noticed
Your legs were distracting
World's unclear instruction
And the family function
I wanted to fight but you kept the mode flight on
You made me feel like I had to hide myself
Pretend we never were more than friends
And I feel remnants of your teeth on my skin
I will make you bleed just like I did
I feel remnants of your breath on my ears
I will make you scream
I remember that night you slept over drunk
Looking for shelter, underage, afraid of your mom
Asked me for aid, never asked for my arms
Of us two only I seemed touched-deprived
Not fun to talk to, here to sleep and go home
I got the leftovers your friends didn't want
You'd let the night chew you out onto the streets
The audacity to come to me, innocently
What the f*ck was up with sleepovers and wine
Kissing in the moonlight with all of our friends
Inviting me afterwards to your flat
To make out endlessly with parents away
And I had to run sixteen minutes to midnight
If I wasn't the one who'd get to kiss you
You'd take me to some weird-ass places
Because of you my heart was in trenches
Anyone would go insane
Getting mixed signals, green- go, then red
But I'm the monster, I am soulless
I hate you for that if I'm being honest
Anyone would go insane
Never said no, in case it would end
FUCKING LESBOS, out in public
A problem when it came to your parents
How could you ever say you're the only one in pain
How could you ever say that I never hurt that way
How could you ever confess right there on the stairs
Trying to get me back when I'm ready to forget
How could you ever say that what I did was cruel
How could you never notice how hard I fell for you
Could you ever say that it didn't hurt me too
How could you ever say
When I feel,
I feel,
I feel,
Oh I feel all of this that you've cursed me with
I feel your fingertips they're still on me
I will make you hurt just cause I can
I feel, ooooh oooh
I will, I will, I will,
Will I, will I, will
Will I, will I, will I, will I, will I ,will I make you feel?