RREIGN - Ghost Lyrics

I said it'd be different way too many times
Sat and watched my little brothers cry
'Cause they thought my leaving was wrong
And I lost compassion for my mom
And I'd never say it, but I'm terrified
Of growin' up and learnin' real life
'Cause all I've ever known is how to die
I never learned how to compromise

I don't know how to be good anymore
I spent my summer on a California bathroom floor
And all the lights were flickerin' when I came home
What if all they ever see in me is a ghost?
And I'm a liar sometimes, too
I wanna be good, but don't know how to be new
And all the lights are flickerin' when I come home
What if all they ever see in me is a ghost?

I grew up in a home with an angry fist
A drunken mouth always throwin' fits
Scared for my mom, but could never admit it
The first time I fell in love was a wreck
I tried to hurt without feelin' it
A scumbag addicted to cigarettes
And hurting girls over the internet

I don't know how to be good anymore
I spent my summer on a California bathroom floor
And all the lights were flickerin' when I came home
What if all they ever see in me is a ghost?
And I'm a liar sometimes, too
I wanna be good, but don't know how to be new
And all the lights are flickerin' when I come home
What if all they ever see in me is a ghost?

Scared of my body
I'm scared to go party
I'm scared of a full meal
Scared I'll never be what they wanna see
Scared I'll never be something normal

I don't know how to be good anymore
I spent my summer on a California bathroom floor
And all the lights were flickerin' when I came home
What if all they ever see in me is a ghost?
And I'm a liar sometimes, too
I wanna be good, but don't know how to be new
And all the lights are flickerin' when I come home
What if all they ever see in me is a ghost?