Ruby Dear - Screwed Lyrics

They cut the cancer out of me
Said look here girl now you'll be free
But I kinda wish they'd left it
'Cause I've been flirting with what death is
A little muse in the night
A little fire in my eyes
And I know I shouldn't romanticize
The poetry of taking my own life
I guess my body's in on it
Ready to give in, call it quits
But the doctor's won't let it go
They keep asking about my shows
And I don't want to promise you
That tomorrow I won't be blue
And I don't want to say goodbye
But I feel like it's almost my time
Well what are you gonna do
When either way you're screwed
Well what are you gonna do
When either way you're screwed
The doc is flirting with the nurse
While he's probing up my purse
And he ain't looking for change
When he discovers something strange
And now they're pumping you with pills
Testing that itty bitty will
Now you're co-paying to get fat
And they wonder why you're sad
And I don't want to promise you
That tomorrow I won't be blue
And I don't want to say goodbye
But I feel like it's almost my time
Well what are you gonna do
When either way you're screwed
Well what are you gonna do
When either way you're screwed
Now I know
My threshold
Is stronger than my will to live
But now I see
The sickest me
Is the version that won't give in
But now I know
My threshold
Is stronger than my will to live
But now I see
The sickest me
Is the version that's the most free
Well what are you gonna do
When either way you're screwed
Well what are you gonna do
When either way you're screwed
Well what are you gonna do
When either way you're screwed
Well what are you gonna do
When either way you're screwed