Rxbyn - spiral Lyrics

It's getting kinda heavy
All this weight you keep putting on my body
Sorry
I'm getting aches in my belly
Guess it's from all the stress
Yeah, you know that shit is deadly
Very
I've been on a roll
I've been on a vacay, vacay
Tryna keep it cool
Tryna run from your negativity
(Hey, hey)
Spiral
Down
Spinning
Round
Under
Ground
'Bout to
Drown
I don't think it's funny
How you're talking to me
All this shit so petty
Lies white like betty
None of this is pretty, no
All your words affect me
How you make me happy
Turn around and tear me down the next week
You feel no sympathy
Pity, no
It's a cold world
But you don't care
Spiral
Down
Spinning
Round
Under
Ground
'Bout to
Drown
Black clouds rain down with hate
How we came out, it's fake now
We spiral down so we flame out
But now I'm at a higher place than yesterday
When I think of you and that blue dress
I was your date, but your best friend got me too stressed
'Cause it's all about them, never 'bout us
Do you love to love my tears?
Am I ugly, am I weird?
Do you even f*cking care about me?
They ask why you ain't here
Then you ask why I ain't here?
You tore my sanity up out me
And oh, I feel your heart beating
Then no, I don't feel your heart beating
Spiral
Down
Spinning
Round
Under
Ground
'Bout to
Drown
It's getting really heavy
All this pain you inflicting on my body
Sorry
You don't know how it affects me
Most of my nights are spent thinking that I am nothing
Falling
Spiral
Down
Spinning
Round
Under
Ground
'Bout to
Drown
I'm spiraling out
Spiraling down
(I hate myself for it)