S God - Blow Up Lyrics

I don't know how to not blow up
All this anger in my body, Imma throw up
Wishin' that my temper would just slow up
Maybe I just need to go and grow up
I don't know how to not blow up
All this anger in my body, Imma throw up
Wishin' that my temper would just slow up
Maybe I just need to go and grow up

Lack control, I'm on a roll
Of spewing venom out my throat
This negativity that has been crawlin' right into me
Black coated centipede, look what it did to me
Now that my heart is on fire
Smaller things sparkin' the flame to grow higher
Don't need a lighter, I do not require
'Cause anyone, anything now the supplier
The sadness in my soul replaced with the malice
My cup runneth over then spill out the chalice
I'm sippin' on bitterness, chill in the palace
While I'm watchin' rage quickly unbalance
I
Know what you're thinkin'
If I know I'm drowning then why do I sink in
I find that enlightenment isn't so easy
Despite being aware, the demon defeats me

I don't know how to not blow up
All this anger in my body, Imma throw up
Wishin' that my temper would just slow up
Maybe I just need to go and grow up
I don't know how to not blow up
All this anger in my body, Imma throw up
Wishin' that my temper would just slow up
Maybe I just need to go and grow up

I just need a rest from this temper in my chest
I just need a rest from this temper in my chest
I just need a rest from this temper in my chest
But I can't get a rest
No
No

I did not choose to be this way
Pushin' family out with the words I say
As reaction to actions that's minor in hindsight
I don't understand why I can't get my mind right
I'm thankful I've not gotten violent
And every time, someway I've managed to fight it
But what if I tried it?
And it's more than a pillow or wall that I might hit
Tried all the methods, I've tried to hold back
But I can't hold my tongue when I feel it attack
I'm just blinded, reminded of how not misguided I really am
But it's the opposite
I just be hawkin' spit
Why do you love me?
Mistreated you many times
Why don't you shove me?
How do you tolerate?
My mouth every day when I'm spewing this hate 'cause

I don't know how to not blow up
All this anger in my body, Imma throw up
Wishin' that my temper would just slow up
Maybe I just need to go and grow up
I don't know how to not blow up
All this anger in my body, Imma throw up
Wishin' that my temper would just slow up
Maybe I just need to go and grow up

I just need a rest from this temper in my chest
I just need a rest from this temper in my chest
I just need a rest from this temper in my chest
But I can't get a rest
No
No