I explain I'm not in my head
In the chair I'm nodding off again
All I ever wanted was just a friend
Now all I think about is when it's gon end
As a man how do I say I'm depressed ?
Anxiety, I'm holding my damn chest
Hyperventilating tryna catch my breath
I'm gonna make it , let family get some rest
I can't stop till I'm counting my damn bread
I love God, but he putting me to the test
Dear satan you're really doing your best
You can't last in my head , it's really a mess
I breakdown I cannot deal with the stress
Sometimes I think it'll be better if I am dead
How are you feeling ?
How are you feeling truly ?
Like , like how are you feeling ?
I think I need some prescriptions
I'm on the stage and I'm clearly addicted
If I end it , I'll do it where there's no witness
Dear music I think I am too far in it
To the ones I love I'm sorry I've been distant
Maybe I belong in a whole different dimension
Oh , I'm sorry , that's something I didn't mention
And I'm tired of fake happiness , pretending
I think it's time I tell you how I am feeling
Misunderstood , I'm always the damn villain
How are you feeling tho ?
Yeah, you
How are you feeling bro ?
I care abt you , in case somebody hasn't told you
Taking over but I'm still not happy
I know yall like it better when I am rapping
But some things, they just gotta be done
One shot
I take one shot
And then it's two shot
And now I forgot
Will the substance really help me?
Keep it real, my mental health is not healthy
I probably will not be happy when I'm wealthy
But I'll still do it for the family
Imma retire them and then I may js leave
Cuts on my skin and I cover it with a sleeve
Hoping one day that I can just sit and breathe
Hope one day that I'll be living in peace
And maybe one day I won't overthink
Nah