Saint Greg - Vent Lyrics

Humbled by the past
No more shame to carry
Grateful for the present
It's a gift of many
Calm thoughts toward the future
No more time to worry
I'm the pilot of my life
This is my journey
I spend so much time by my lonely
I can't trust anybody people phony
Feeling like everybody wants to lie to me
Everyday I've been dealing with anxiety
But I keep it cool
I still get up
I put on a smile
I put on a front
I hit the bar
I fill up a cup
Hoping the alcohol will drown the pain
Random people steady dapping me up
But that shit makes me feel way to exposed
Like if they heard of me and seen me before
Did they see me wear these clothes before
That's not the shit that f*cks with my head
What f*cks with my head is that I don't know
I hated that Marcus was my only fan
Now I wish it was just still me and my bro
Chasing my dreams now I'm getting close
My heart's getting colder and I'm losing hope
Sometimes I think that God messed with my heart
So I don't use drugs to cope
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Yea
Yea yea yea yea yea
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Feeling so conflicted
I don't know what I want now
It's like the music people listen to nowdays
Is so dumbed down
I do this shit for the art
All of my shit has meaning
I do this shit from the heart
Got to kill these demons like Kenan
I'm a motherf*cking G yea I mean it
And not cause I'm drinking syrup and leaning
Not cause I'm smoking weed and buzzing
I'm not screaming gang gang with my cousin
I'm not hitting licks or nothing
I'm just being myself I'm not fronting
And these niggas hating that
If they could grab my life they'd take it back
They see that I'm winning
They see that I'm getting
They hate that I rap
Cause they got to fake it to make it
While I just go ape on the track
F*ck it I'm keeping my tunnel vision
Like I'm Kodak Black
Rest in peace to XXX
Niggas want to kill you off
When you the best nigga
Damn
Kill you off when you the best nigga
But I
I try to stay focused and motivated
Even though I know that I'm the most hated
Even when people keep on throwing shade
I know that shit will all go away
Old friends turned their back on me
That's where I feel the most pain
I hope that shit goes away
God damn I feel so betrayed
When you had nothing to your name
I was the only one that would help
All the cards that I was dealt
I still looked out for everyone else
Like am I fool for looking out
For motherf*ckers that I once cared about
The only time I hear about them now
Is when they got my name in their f*cking mouth
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Ohh ohh
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Yea yea yea yea yea
Yea
I can't lie I'm knee deep in this game
It feels like do or die
Almost feel like the things I want to do in life
Requires suicide
On my knees I'ma say a prayer
God why did you even make me
Why can't I just be happy
F*ck damn
I think I'm going crazy
It is what it is man I got to fight this battle
Cause I got a son now
My family relying on me to take them out the slums now
I am the one now
My stepdad kicked me out the house for no reason
But that motherf*cker's a bum now
And that motherf*cker's so dumb now
But I don't give a f*ck I'm up now
My baby momma looks out for me
In ways that I can not even express aye
Even if we don't end up together
I'ma make sure that she can still flex aye
My mission's to make sure that Lo Lo
Can say that his dad's the best aye
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