Never Be The Same Again Video (MV)

I tried so hard to catch a falling knife
Within an inch of my life, your blood rained on me
Now you see I'll never be the same again
I swear your shotgun stare was rifled
My last breath stifled by the pain that fanned out from your gaze
In your haze I'll never be the same again
Can you tell me what it means as I lay here without breath
Wondering where the hell I'm going if I haven't left
Oh, I'll never be the same again
Tallies marking up the walls for every time I missed your calls
Oh, I'm not ashamed I stayed for so long
Marching to my own drum, each throbbing beat is the sum
Of our confident misery, drowning in our history, oh Lord
I tried so hard to catch a falling knife
Within an inch of my life, your blood rained on me
Now I see I'll never be the same again