Samedee - Your Sun Lyrics

I put you through so much, I know it was hard to raise me
Wasn't a nice feeling, when I saw you spilling your eyes
Filling my diary, with diarrhea, cuz I got so much shit on my mind
Reminiscing about them times I fought with my momma
Lord knows I would be lost if I lost Shadonna
Now that I'm older, I appreciate everything she's done for me
The younger me was just too dumb to see
How do I pay her back?
I've always loved her but I hate my dad
He say he love me, I don't say it back, cuz I replaced his ass
With Tony, my father figure, he put knowledge in my noggin
Watching Me grow into a man, he should feel accomplished
Ain't raise no convicts, had minor conflicts, was just a kid who wasn't conscious
My sense wasn't common
Momma could have let us get adopted but she kept her promise
To never turn her back on us, even though it was an option
Some nights I shed tears cuz know I did some heinous acts
And all the times that I f*cked up are times I can't get back
The past has happened, ain't no changing that
So I'm gon' right my wrongs, inside my songs
Speaking my life behind the microphone
No matter what I did, you always loved your son (Your son, your son, your son)
Your son
I put you through a lot, but you still love your son (Your son, your son, your son)
Your son
When something bothers me, you know cuz I'm your son
(Your son, your son, your son)
Your son
And when your world is cloudy, you'll always have your sun
The world's greatest parents, thanks for your love and caring
When something bothers me you can sense it
Because I am your child, but I deny it and put on that smile
That you love to see, long as I live you will have love for me
My brothers too, and my sister
Momma you stuck with me, when I felt ugly
My first heartbreak, my heart ached
I was in a dark place, but I got through them dark days
"No reason to cry son, you shine, you are my sun"
Is what you told me, number one mother, you deserve a trophy
You and my pops
Looking at throwback, Kodak moments, fill me with nostalgia
I can't picture life without ya
So many memories, when we was sick you had the remedies
Full Time parent, it drained your energy
I may not say it all the time but I love you, no one above you
You hustle, working them doubles, it's a struggle
I just wanna say you are appreciated, I understand now
Watch your son grow into a man now
No matter what I did, you always loved your son (Your son, your son, your son)
Your son
I put you through a lot, but you still love your son (Your son, your son, your son)
Your son
When something bothers me, you know cuz I'm your son (Your son, your son, your son)
Your son
And when your world is cloudy, you'll always have your sun
The world's greatest parents, thanks for your love and caring