Sara Sonder - Paradox Lyrics

4 A.M. alone in bed
Still stoned though I promised not to drink again
The emptiness was supposed to be filled during this short dance
The music's louder than the voices in my head

So I'll keep dancing, dancing
Till I forget why I'm here
Wearing this tight dress
So maybe someone notices
That I'm craving, craving
Some affection, some relief
But when the bottle's empty
It's still not emptier than me

Can anyone see me through this
Makeup and fake laugh, I've been using
Can anyone see the tears
That I don't shred, when I feel nothing

Can I feel something?

Still alone, got nowhere to run
He left me with a broken heart not long ago
But this night, made me realize
Some may come and go, but my tears dry on their own

'Cause I was dancing, dancing
Getting lost in the crowd
Closing my eyes so maybe the pain
Would leave for a while
Tryna feel something, something
More than this aching soul
But the more I try to hold it in
The more I lose control

Can anyone see me through this
Makeup and fake laugh, I've been using
Can anyone see the tears
That I don't shred, when I feel nothing

Can I feel something?

I know I do,
'Cause my heart's overwhelmed
How can I feel so
Empty and full at once
I know I'm a paradox
And it's scary at times
But all I'm really asking for
Is just a bit of love

Can anyone see me through this
Makeup and fake laugh, I've been using
Can anyone see the tears
That I don't shred, when I need someone

I don't need someone
'Cause I am someone
And I'm already everything I need