Saturday Night Vampire - A gamble I lost / Papa was a gambling man Lyrics

Papa told me
He was a gambling man
When you're older my son
Don't be c#ck and f#ck whenever you can
Mama told me, papa was a gambling man
He gambled us away, on a poker game
Into slavery, but it's all ok
Papa told me
He was a gambling man
Can you lend me
Five dollars so I can
Buy some booze
Buy some booze
Then we can talk
Again
Buy some booze
Again
So we can walk
Buy some booze, again
So we can walk and talk
Chop you up, again

Papa was gambling man
Papa was gambling man
He gambled my future away
Now I am here, here to stay
Now I am here, here to stay

I was an angry man
I was an angry man
I'd do whatever I can
I'd do whatever I can
Papas head is an open wound
My axe split his head into an open wound

Be a simple man
Be something you love and understand
How can I love someone like me
Someone like you
A bastard like you
A bastard like me
Even god tried to correct his mistake
Multiple times
Based on your crimes
By erasing me
But here I am, dead but not dead
Asking why, sick in my bed
Time passes by
Sick in my head
Looking forward
Looking back
But all I see, is torment ahead
I try to forgive
But I cannot forget

All I do is asking why
All I do is waiting to die
I can bring myself, bring myself to cry
I try so hard, but my eyes are dry

Papa was gambling man
Papa was gambling man
He gambled my future away
Now I am here, here to stay

I was an angry man
I was an angry man
I'd do whatever I can
I'd do whatever I can
Papas head is an open wound
My axe split his head into an open wound

God is a woman
She must be
Otherwise I cannot feel, any love for the
I cannot love, a gambling man
Someone who can
Inflict such pain and torment
In such a span
Surely it can't be, his plan
I want to be, but can't be a simple man
Your parents, you stab, you thrust the knife
Blood spilled, it ends their life
And the bible says, I should end my life
Because I despise a man, that destroyed my life

Papa was gambling man
Papa was gambling man
He gambled my future away
Now I am here, here to stay
Now I am here, here to stay

I don't want to be here
Now I am here, here to stay
Why am I here?
Now I am here, here to stay
So weak, I bet you'll give in!
Now I am here, here to stay

Papa was gambling man
Papa was gambling man
He gambled my future away
Now I am here, here to stay

Papa was gambling man
Papa was gambling man
He gambled my future away
Now I am here, here to stay
Now I am here, here to stay