Love Is an Illusion Video (MV)

I'm in love with an illusion
Cuz the you I had in front of me
Was so f*cking confusing
I've known you for years
And don't know you at all
Cuz you changed
To the point
Of being unrecognizable
It's typical
You being as loving as you can
Telling me how cool I am
But when the fun is over
You don't really give a damn, damn
I wanted us to have a happy ending
Since its never gonna happen
Guess I'll have to keep pretending
I wait for you to say something
Although its never the right thing
It's so upsetting
Every time a moment passes
Without thoughts of you
My mind reminds me
That I'm never forgetting
The good times we had
Back in the beginning
When we first started hanging
And I thought that it would last
My mind keeps trying to
Relive that past
Every second
I scream your name in my head
Why can't I just forget it
You're all I see
When I close my eyes
And I wanna die
With you there by my side
How did I fall this hard this fast
I mean I know every little thing about you
I wish I never had even asked
It's a vicious cycle
Every chapter in this book
Has the same f*cking title
Time flies
Seems like your mind
Never gets older though
It's colder this time
And I'm surprised
To not have seen you grow
Flowers in your mind
Like the flowers you wear
Head to toe
And I was never really this
Disappointed though
To see someone leave
And to be sure
That you lied to me
You f*cked me up
Got me writing songs for you
In the back of my best friends truck
Trying to keep my f*cking head up
But my head's in the clouds
And I can't get up
I should have never let it get this far
Now here I am
Wish I could say that here we are
I guess I'm addicted
To the pain you inflict on me
Trusted you too quickly
You're all I see
When I close my eyes
And I wanna die
With you there by my side
And how did I fall this hard this fast
I mean I know
Every little thing about you
I wish I had never even asked
I'm just
Trapped in your cage
I wanna be free
You make this so hard
When it could be so easy
My conscious mind
Took way too long to grasp
It's way too late for me
To leave you in the past
My mind puts up a fight
To let you go
But the part of me
That I just can't control
Will never wanna be alone