SCI the Lonewolf - Tribulations Lyrics

I think I get it
You go and spend what you think will numb the pain
But the problem is you go in knowin that it's just in vain
Cuz you can't let go
Remember how it felt, when you saw her walking out the door
Running, chasing after someone that could care less about you
Is stressing the life of the people who surround you
Yea
You feeling that feeling of feeling feelings that change how you concealing the grief
Are you willin to let go
Of the past, it's why you writing now
Song after song, scraping till you found the sound
Last year, I lost some sleep, future on my mind
Switched career choices, now I'm on the grind
But still
I'm working on spreading my message to people who felt the same
When the dreams that you dreamt, inspires people to do the same
Then what can you say
I'm tryna shine a light off in their darkest days

Tribulations
Tribulations
Tribulations
Tribulations
Tribulations
Tribulations
Tribulations

This one for all the non believers
Who can't believe that I'm goin in, without out a breather
Like I'm aiming for the highest bar
So I'm climbing the ladder, and hoping that the rungs ain't getting sawed
Yea
My motivation is making payments to help raise my family, my future education
But I know I can't do it all alone
Better to share the wealth, than gamble it on some selfish woes
Yea
Before I leave, I gotta see what you think it means
Is it better to chase a goal, and not a simple life
Where everything is secured, and no failure stings
Risking nothing, always within her safety's reach
And then die with regrets, I'm not chasing fame
But I'm happy with recognition, of my name
Opportunity called, you know you gotta answer
But I declined, I needed my questions answered

The forced treason
Never have I been given the reason to reason with heathens
Sinister forces face me to face their forces
The Legions
My discourse is nothing but spoken grievances
So when I quote the reasons, they question the inconveniences
My demons meeting, plotting and scheming
The downfall of my achievements, but I brokered a meeting
So I'll mend this heart that's nonstop bleeding
It takes me back to the days when I couldn't convey my feelings
When 16 bars wasn't something I could write and finish
When my whole demeanor had me nothing less than embarrassed
When I acted like my life wasn't important, but it's cherished
Yea